I’m finally ungrounded. And tonight is the first night that I’ve been out with a group of friends and had fun. Finally. After 2 1/2 months, this was verrrrrry much needed. So happy and relieved! :-)

I just don’t know how to feel anymore. I hate what I’ve done. I messed up and now I have to live with this guilty conscious for a while. All I know is I’m confused.

Late night thoughts because I never sleep

I find myself thinking of the SAME person every night as I go to bed. Sometimes they’re happy memories, and positive thoughts. Sometimes they’re bad memories, and negative thoughts. Either way, I’m glad I can move on now. Of course I’m always going to miss what we had. But I’m relieved that I have nothing to worry about anymore. I can finally just focus on my relationship with God, and how to remain enduring an optimistic lifestyle. I may still miss you, but I’m honestly glad we’re over. I feel like myself again. I’m happy again :-)

So many things go unnoticed in my life. But I’m fine with it. Some things are better left as is. There’s no need to try and change or fix everything. Sometimes broken and abandoned is good.